I know you want all the juicy details...so lets start from the beginning.
When I met Dan there was allot of things going on in my heart and head. I had recently come home from a mission and had a broken heart. The guy I could have married before my mission had married one of my closest friends ( they still ARE my great friends). Mind you, this could be a story in itself, but to make it short-- I will cut down the details. The guy and I had made no promises about waiting for each other while I served an 18 month mission. I knew that if it was right it would be right when I got home. It was an answer to my prayers that it took care of itself--HOWEVER that does not mean that it did not hurt me, even though I was grateful for their happiness. I was not ready to open my heart.I was certain my hubby was not at BYU, and that I needed to pursue my career, and get going on to the next phase in life. I had also started dating someone who I thought had all the qualities I needed and wanted (EFY counselor, RICKS football player, owned a truck, had horses, he COULD DANCE and lift me over his head, loved country, played the guitar, gave me fresh flowers and poetry, took me to the temple, and was a great friend) BUT it was just not there, and I was trying to get out of that relationship...that is when I met Dan.
Dan came into my life with gentleness and patience, both things I REALLY needed at that time. Even when he knew by our 2nd date that I was the one (I will spare his embarrassment from reading his journal entry for now) he knew that I had to have that same confirmation, and was in NO RUSH to tell me or push me into marriage.
When we did reconnect again it was quickly apparent that we preferred each others companionship. He was the "eye of the storm" for me. I appreciated his simpleness, stability, maturity, and sound reasoning. So I found myself with him often, even though I was insistent that we still date other people (at least me) the majority of the time we dated. I think that enabled me options out, and back-up plans in case it did not work.
Even though Dan had received numerous confirmations, with me doubting so much, he finally decided it was time for him to date other people as well, and his feelings began to change towards me! I PANICKED! I thought living with him would be hard, living without him was even harder. For the first time I had a confirmation that I was to be with him and it did not matter when or where (besides the temple) but I WANTED to marry HIM. I was not forced, was not manipulated, was not scared I would not have other chances...I simply chose him. I always wanted him in my life. So I told Dan.
I realized that I had committed to our relationship and things were getting to the point where he was going to purpose. It did not mean that doubts never plagued me again--almost as soon as I committed to our relationship all the doubts came flooding back. HOWEVER this time I had a peaceful, spiritual confirmation that this was a very good thing that I could fall back on, and remember. Sometimes I kick myself for making this sooo hard. Our family came very quickly for us and I feel like I spent so much time worrying during our dating days, that I did not completely enjoy or appreciate this FREE-love dating time. No real obligations, monetary responsibilities, and ANY hours I wanted!!!
Well-to Dan's credit he did try talking me into a jewelry shop to look at rings that night...but I declined. We were done with Park City and were headed back to Provo when we took a little detour up to squaw peak just as the sun was setting! We found a wild sunflower field with a big rock right in the middle, that overlooked the valley and the lake. It was an ABSOLUTE perfect and beautiful setting. To think that I wanted my boyfriend to ask me to marry him at a football game with it written on an airplane flying overhead when I was a freshman makes me laugh (hey--if that is how it happened for you, some people really dig it) BUT this was for me! We sat there for a little bit and then Dan was on his knee. I really wish I had written down what he had said (he always has had a way with words), but it went along the lines of: I am trying to go to the celestial kingdom and I have chosen you to go with me. I would be honored if you would be my wife...will you marry me Alicia?. I was speechless (believe it or not) I started to cry. This was it! I wanted to say yes, but that seemed too easy (heaven forbid something be easy). I sat and thought and thought. I hugged him and started making him make me promises, like: promise me we will have a wrap around porch, promise me we will go camping every weekend as a family. He simply smiled and told me he would try to give me all those things.
Then the phone calls began and our wedding was underway!
I got my ring AFTER we were engaged, on our 2nd date to the Y--we hiked it one more time, except this time-- Dan had something very expensive, very pretty, and very meaningful in his pocket to give me!
Yeah-who's the strong one now? Dan and Alicia goofing of in Elk Grove California November1999
Our Engagement Party for all my mission friends in Auburn, California (an area I served in- thrown by one of my favorite investigators (the MacKays) Summer 2000
The A's and the Diamondbacks- Guess who Dan voted for? Summer 2000
One of our most Fun Dates spent in San Fransisco--Summer 2000
Happily Ever After... October 21, 2000
Visiting "our spot" at Squaw Peak on our 1 year celebration of being engaged (May 21, 2001)...check out how prego I am!!!! ?Oh yeah, and the sunflowers were back!